Sometimes regrets are good

There are are some people who don’t understand it when I get emotional while talking about my past. They think I may be dwelling in it too much or that perhaps I haven’t gotten over some of it yet. What they don’t understand is that I use the emotions I can still feel from my past to help others and to continue trying to be a better a person than I was before. For instance. When I allow myself to feel sadness over certain events in my childhood. It helps me understand any sadness someone else may be feeling over their own childhood and to better direct them as to what is needed to get past it. The same goes for anger, worry, and self pity. As far as how these emotions help me to be a better person. When I look back on the the times when I simply wasn’t the best person I could be, or a better husband and father. I use whatever sadness, and in some cases anger I feel towards myself, to help motivate me to be a better person, husband, and father today. I clearly understand that I wasn’t the most horrible person someone ever met, and in most circumstances often tried to do the right thing. However, make no mistake about it, some of the things I did were not spiritual and certainly should not of happened. Fortunately I know I’m not the same person I was back then and am capable of using my past and the emotions it sometimes brings to the surface, to not only help others and myself, but to also feel grateful for who I am today.